2 days of going to sleep at 8am

sober.

ive been working on this track now for 2days straight.

i like hibernation.

the clouds are so beautiful slowly migrating across the sky

my whole apartment might be falling apart and in shambles

but the view is perfect for working by..

it kind of takes me away from everything els.

the water and the mountains even the big gray unfinished buildings seem to be helping me along. The wind blows through them and they sound as if there breathing or sighing.

i almost feel like were friends and there watching over me.

As for blue eyes..

the thought of him makes me chain smoke or eat something despite that i am no were near hungry.

i think i am going to take up palates.

god.

At home its easy when it comes to men, boy wants girl..

girl decides whether she wants boy or not the end.

Here its different because the girls are easy and the boys are hard to keep.

God i hate the unnecessary awkwardness that i have stumbled in to.

of course it is my own fault. all of it.

It would be nice to just go to sleep in the same bed as some one and just sleep.

just sleeep nothing wild or sinister.

i always disguise this thought though. its week. so id rather be alone than admit it.

not that admitting it would get me any wear.

and i guess not just "some one " would do.

i miss innocence.

thank god for hibernation.